Monica Lewinsky finally takes the covers off her love affair with former President Bill Clinton in Vanity Fair. “It’s time to burn the beret and bury the blue dress.” She also says: “I, myself, deeply regret what happened between me and President Clinton. Let me say it again: I. Myself. Deeply. Regret. What. Happened.” She finally wants to let go of the shadows of her past and live free of them.
She reveals that one of the most irritating moments of her life with Clinton included the humiliation which she had to face at the hands of the press and the media. These were one of the things that completely changed her life. She reveals bluntly and very clearly that “Sure, my boss took advantage of me, but I will always remain firm on this point: it was a consensual relationship. Any ‘abuse’ came in the aftermath, when I was made a scapegoat in order to protect his powerful position. . . . The Clinton administration, the special prosecutor’s minions, the political operatives on both sides of the aisle, and the media were able to brand me. And that brand stuck, in part because it was imbued with power.”
She does not regret turning down all those job offers which would have earned her millions of dollars and while she moved between London, Los Angeles, New York, and Portland, Oregon, she gave several interviews and everywhere people would refer to her past as being unfit for the company or the position she was being interviewed for. Surely the reports made public in February that Hillary Clinton, during the 1990s in which she was called a “narcissistic loony toon”, were just adding more to the humiliation but Lewinsky responded saying that “My first thought, as I was getting up to speed: If that’s the worst thing she said, I should be so lucky. Mrs. Clinton, I read, had supposedly confided to Blair that, in part, she blamed herself for her husband’s affair (by being emotionally neglectful) and seemed to forgive him. Although she regarded Bill as having engaged in ‘gross inappropriate behavior,’ the affair was, nonetheless, ‘consensual (was not a power relationship).’
” The reason why she has finally stepped up and wants to go public is that she wants to get rid of the ghosts from the past. She says that she was certainly the most humiliated person on earth when her relation with Clinton became known to world. “Thanks to the Drudge Report, I was also possibly the first person whose global humiliation was driven by the Internet.” Her current goal, she says, “is to get involved with efforts on behalf of victims of online humiliation and harassment and to start speaking on this topic in public forums.”