Liam Neeson's opening up about the couple's final moments before taking Natasha Richardson off life support.
Liam Neeson's opening up again to the British press about wife Natasha Richardson's tragic death in 2009. He's never been completely silent due to spotlight on his career and her family's fame, but opening up and letting people in isn't easy.
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During a Quebec ski trip, The Parent Trap actress fell and assumed the injury to be minor. However, it was discovered to be a larger problem and forced medical intervention. Sadly, the attention came to late and the stage actress passed away at 45 due to epidural hematoma.
Since Richardson’s passing, Hollywood media's wondered about Neeson's quiet grieving and when he'll go back to the Hollywood status quo. Given his recent interviews, it's easy to assume the action star will need more time.
"Liam Neeson Admits Wife Natasha Richardson's Death Still 'Doesn't Feel Real' Five Years On" by Huffington Post UK discusses his personal impact of her death and offered a preview of what he felt in those intimate decisions.
In an interview to Loaded, Neeson recently revealed the couple's final moments, before giving permission to pull life support.
"I went in to her and I just told her I loved her. I said, 'Sweetie, you're not coming back from this'." And almost eerily, the couple had planned ahead for any sort of medical complication. "She and I had made a pact. If any of us got into a vegetative state we'd pull the plug."
A plan that probably helped in ensuring the surviving family unit stayed bonded, but probably wasn't easy to witness in person before saying goodbye. "So when I saw her and saw all these tubes and stuff that was my immediate thought, 'OK, these tubes have to go. She's gone'."
While a practical decision, emotionally the decision is much harder connect with. And Liam's never shied away from the love and affection he felt for Natasha. Even turning down every action star's coveted 007 role to please his then-fiancée.
In a 2011 interview with Esquire's Tom Chiarella, the Irishman described the emotional weight. In a moment of glaring vulnerability, he admits the gut-wrenching moments about arriving at the hospital.
"So I get there, just in time. And all these young doctors, who look all of eighteen years of age, they tell me the worst." That's how "I think I survived" by "running away to work" turned into a coping mechanism because the loneliness "hits me in the middle of the night."
Seems the interview was originally scheduled for 2009, right after Natasha's death. Neeson'd been working hard, full of premiers and upcoming movies, but the timing wasn't right. "I shouldn't have said yes in the first place. It was too fresh. I just wasn't ready." Seemingly because running to work doesn't always quiet the pain, grief.
Three years after the Esquire interview, and the emotional punch’s still there.
Now the Nell actor says Natasha's unexpected and tragic death "never felt real." It's easy to assume part of that is watching their sons grow up and seeing her glimmering back on occasion. And there's a deep connection to the woman that broke his previous "I operate better on my own" attitude.
People covered the couples' 1994 wedding in "Acting on Love." A wedding full of mishaps, including Aidan Quinn's late arrival and her mother Vanessa Redgrave's inability to attend, couldn't stop the bride from proclaiming to be "madly, passionately" in love.
And a quick Google search shows images full of a smiling, laughing couple, who’d worked hard at being a couple and a family. Physically touching, being connected, never far out of sight, standing close…all body language that clearly states "I love you."
Liam Neeson's healing but it's a slow, painful process. It's not hard to understand how the death and loss of marriage "still kind of isn't" real to the 62-year-old.
Loaded’s complete interview’s available on newsstands now.